Monthly Archives: June 2013
Any techies out there? I have a complaint about my server people and don’t know where to go
My e-mail keeps going out. By “out,” I mean, I am unable to log in with any device here at home and not only that, I am unable, right at the same time, to log in with my cell phone.
I can easily access other sites such as weather dot com, nextbus, or whatever I need. I can get Facebook. I can get into other e-mail accounts just fine. But this IMAP account won’t log in.
I phoned my server people. I’m kind of straddling between two servers right now because juliegreene.name is a site that not all servers do.
So once a week, my e-mail goes down. Not for five minutes, not for ten minutes, but for just about the entire day. Then, guess what. Poof! It’s back.
At this very momnent, my cell phone starts e-mail working like magic.
They tried to tell me it was a compatability problem. Then they said it was my firewall settings. I turned off my firewall entirely and STILL couldn’t log in. They claim nothing’s wrong on their end
And they claim I am crazy.
Today, my e-mail works. By magic.
Is there some administration I can turn to, telling them I get a different answer each time I call, depending on which tech support person reach?
I have received e-mails from them days later with an apology, saying the problem was on their end. Gee, after they called me crazy. This blows.
Go on with it, and be brave, Julie
Yes, my blog has become central in my life. I didn’t even realize it. People are telling me to keep on writing and doing what I am doing. Yes, it is the reason I have lost friends. Yes, my big mouth (well, they call it “liability”) is the reason I am being refused care at the big hospital over there in Boston, never mind that I am telling the truth, I am not paranoid, I am doing nothing illegal, and folks all around me are doing nothing but cheering me on.
If I do pursue a legal case against the hospital, it will be lengthy…maybe over a year of digging into all kinds of paperwork and records and maybe a lot of people that were involved don’t even work there anymore. What’s keeping this powerful hospital from fudging their records? Who holds onto them? After I concluded my inpatient stay in 2011, the nurses or one of the doctors could have “edited” a page or two about my “care.”
I mean, sending security guards up to “contain” an emaciated patient who has asked to bring an 8-oz bottle of water with her to sustain herself while she rides the bus home following discharge…the trip will be will be over 45 minutes…claiming this patient is not allowed to bring the water home, claiming carrying a bottle of water home is “stealing from the hospital.”
Of course, my fellow patients were laughing their asses off while I handed the very small bottle of water to the security guard. Honestly, I didn’t know what to think. I just shrugged, figuring I’d have to buy something very soon to drink after I left, because the water bottle I’d been carrying when I’d been admitted had probably gotten moldy sitting in my knapsack.
Well, life goes on. I still don’t know what to think.
They told me while I was there, “We’re afraid of your writing. We’re afraid you will expose the hospital.” Oh yes, those exact words, no kidding.
I have 50 subscribers as of today.
Folks tell me to go on with it no matter what anyone says, and be brave.
July…Nano project title…
Well, who knew it. As I’ve said, I’ve been thinking of doing a July Nano. I was just about to go to bed. Presto….my title came to me. Never mind what it is. I’m rather excited about it. Weird how these things happen.
Funny, though…now I kinda know what the book is gonna be about….Hmm…Like a sneak preview, sorta. I suppose that’s the way the end of June is. You’re doomed, Julie.
Advantage to health care in larger cities…many “systems” to choose from
It depends on your “insurance” but this is what I’ve found….
Whereas you might get excellent health care in a small town, you really don’t have much to choose from. I’ve had health care in a small town, and when I’ve bombed out with what they had to offer, my only option was to drive out of town to get my care, or finally, to relocate elsewhere or give up entirely, which I decided wasn’t an option at that time.
My parents would not let me give up. I thought of them as rather nagging and annoying, but finally, they took me in. I moved to the Big City and I’ve been here ever since.
I’ve found that with health care in a Big City, you can bomb out real bad here, too. You can feel like you have exhausted your options. Just like that small town.
But no, the good thing is, this place is huge. It’s a metropolis. There’s not just the one small health care system operating here and no other system. There are many systems.
So hopefully, if you bomb out of one, you can, if you are in a big city, get into another.
Now here’s the real good thing: You can start afresh. They don’t know you in the new system. You are starting afresh and you don’t have the damn “reputation” hanging around your neck.
I keep reminding myself to lay low. Keep the guns uncocked. Oh, by the way, that was a metaphor, assholes.
Can dogs eat peel and seeds? My experience….
I am not a vet and I am sure no expert. So that’s my disclaimer. I am 55 years old and I have lived with dogs all my life and watched them eat since maybe the age of 12.
For the most part, what we humans consider “disgusting” doesn’t register as “disgusting” with dogs. They don’t think that way. They don’t need table manners. They don’t make a food budget. They don’t worry about what is good for them, or are concerned about their weight or body image. The few that do see their own reflection in the mirror tilt their heads to the side with mild curiosity. I suspect the last thing they are thinking is, “Do these jeans make my butt look fat?” What I am saying is that they are on a different spectrum from us when it comes to food.
For years, I struggled to teach my dog to lose interest in nibbling on her own poops. Years ago, the vet gave me stuff to put in her food to stop this “puppy habit.” We tried vitamins, too. There are all kinds of theories as to why dogs do this. Lately, I’ve chosen to take an anthropological view of this and see it as one in the many list of things that separates dog from human. She has four legs and I have two and this is a radical difference from the start.
So the other day I was cutting up an eggplant and a few very small pieces fell on the floor. Anything on the floor is up for grabs unless I say it isn’t. Puzzle must have heard that I was cutting something up and figured, “Hey, mama always drops a morsel for me,” and came in all curious or whatever.
Now eggplant is something interesting. Peel and seeds. Stuff that dogs can’t digest. You look at a piece of eggplant and it’s rather unavoidable. Even if you peel the skin off, just about every bit of it has some seeds in it….teensy seeds. Not that I was even thinking. I wasn’t. It didn’t even register. I tried to recall if eggplant was okay for dogs and I couldn’t remember it being on any warning list anywhere.
You can find a list of poisons by using Google or any search engine…do not use this as a substitute for veterinary care PLEASE… (so in that saying, I hesitate to provide too much info and do say the disclaimer above) however, I mean to say be careful what you give your dog and perhaps these lists that are posted could be used as basic guidelines because they are based on scientific evidence. You can google your local humane society and find guidelines there as well, or call your vet.
If you want to get a houseplant, and your dog is the type that takes a bite out of something to make sure it is okay to have around, you might want to make sure your houseplant isn’t going to make your dog sick. I don’t keep plants cuz I tend to kill them.
Dogs vary in what they can eat. I’ve had some with “iron stomachs” and I’ve had dogs that were more sensitive. I don’t think Puzzle’s stomach was very happy about that little bit of raw eggplant and I am going to be careful from now on.
Ever since we switched to homemade food, Puzzle has been able to eat a wide variety of foods. I’ve read about the trouble dogs have with peel and seeds. Puzzle mostly eats meat, but I add some grain and veggies in very small quantities. My experience is that she can occasionally eat some peel and seeds and digest it just fine, and other peel and seeds is quite difficult for her.
Puzzle eats very small quantities of everything, anyway. Compared to any human, her meals are just snippets. So as I figure it, a few spoonfuls of something will make a big difference in her little tummy.
Lesson learned.
Thoughts on binge eating, more
I am thinking along the lines of pairing binge eating and pica in one vein at this point, in terms of “substance.”
What I found was that there are incredibly few studies done on binge eating. I studied the studies. Why is a study done is 2011 on binge eating considered “pioneering”? Now? Thirty years too late, in my opinion. Science was talking about bulimia, I believe, or at least made it a diagnosis for “adolescent college girls” and I recall the small amount of publicity about it in the 1980’s and I don’t recall myself seeing anything at all earlier than that. So if they knew binge eating existed, I think they were doing all the studies on the dangers of throwing up, and no studies on the first half, the binge eating behavior.
So science thought, I guess, that it would be essential to stop these adolescent girls from this dangerous purging, and I wonder what they thought about the bingeing? It was not on the map. Just ignored. No treatment, nothing. In treatment, they don’t care, either. They have no clue. They will tell you binge eating is natural and normal? No, baby, it is not. Binge eating is disturbing and dangerous.
I repeat, binge eating is disturbing and dangerous for anyone that experiences it first-hand. I applaud the researchers that have painstakingly whacked away trying to find out the cause of this bizarre behavior.
You have to do some really strange distorted and extreme things to an animal to turn it into a binge eater. You really have to work at it. And it doesn’t happen overnight. Rats have been made into rats that did binge eating. They ate copious amounts of food. My heart broke for these tiny creatures. I wanted to tear my hair out. Their lives were now…I don’t know…they don’t think the same way we do but I imagine it was no picnic.
Maybe medical science’s little party of getting away with this gap in research and treatment, that is, treating purging behavior and not treating bingeing behavior, well, that’s just plain sinful, isn’t it? I mean, now what, you dudes in lab coats?
Binge eating, more clarification
I thought I’d clarify a few things I said in a previous post. As far as binge eating goes, I guess my argument there was that it makes no difference what weight the person is or what their background is I think the behavior should be treated as it is and for what it is, especially if it is severe it should be taken very, very seriously. By severe I mean on any spectrum, how it impacts the person’s life, quantity, frequency, time spent at it, how it has affected their family, whether it has caused them to shoplift or caused chronic binge eating while driving or even once caused an accident, and other things. And of course, if it causes severe overweight this is a consideration as well, but one of the many “axes,” which I guess is a term clinicians use. I wonder if I was clear enough about this.
And I think I totally left out the #1 thing that binge eating totally destroys.
Self esteem.
I think that says a million. Because if you have rotten self esteem from binge eating and binge eating BEHAVIOR is not in the DSM-5…..
Now, yes, bulimia is in the DSM-5, but it’s up to the clinicians and treatment places to treat binge eating behavior. Are they indeed treating this behavior? Do they really truly know how to treat it?
My experience is gross negligence and ignorance, never mind the prejudices and put-downs and the clinicians telling you how you need to gain self-control, to shut up and quit having crises, maybe follow your meal plan better, maybe listen better to them, throw out the damn scale, quit caffeine, take meds, quit taking meds, on and on and on and on. Do they really know? I mean, with so little research at their fingertips?
Are they, on the other hand, trying to tell you, after you have made yourself miserable, to “accept” how miserable you feel after you have binged, how stretched your belly is, and go on with your life? Now I ask you: how many times have they told you this and how many times has this cycle gone on and on? Has this clinician ever eaten this much and does this clinician know how YOU feel right now? Probably not. This clinician isn’t going to go through the grief of your full belly for the next few hours. Or the next day of feeling yucky and guilty and horribly full.
Accept this? I say this is unacceptable and I say YOU don’t deserve this grief and misery. YOU didn’t ask for it. No, YOU didn’t pick this binge eating behavior out of a vending machine and say to yourself, “I’m going to have this habit for the next 20 years or so” and then have to live with it.
You go to the treatment centers and guess what? They don’t have any clue how to treat it and guess what? Now, binge eating disorder is in the DSM-5. Folks, this is huge, because the ONLY BEHAVIOR in binge eating disorder, in fact, is binge eating! So guess what? They are now forced to treat binge eating! They are forced to research the damned evasive miserable thing they don’t even want to face.
Cuz it’s ugly. Binge eating is an ugly truth. We shove stuff into our mouths and it’s not pretty, is it. Think of everything ugly you’ve done, and know what I’m saying is true. Hope lies ahead.
It’ll be a bit, maybe a bit of waiting, but there will be research. Studies you’ll be able to get into for no money at all. Places you can go that are covered by many insurances or even possibly if you are uninsured I’ll bet.
But we, us folk, we gotta do our part too. We gotta keep speaking up. Each of us do our part. Keep writing and doing everything we can and I will too. Just don’t shut up about it folks.
Oops, correction….
I goofed when I was talking about Thorazine doses in the last article.
Back then, yep, they were giving people 1800 of Thorazine (no, I was not given that much) but not higher. I meant to say, “higher than 100.”
I will go back and correct that.